My period is just about over

And I'm still really sad.

Hiding out in a coastal town, breathing sea air. But still having occasional flashes of inappropriate anger and blooms of despair.

I've started my ovulation tracking pee sticks again. Just one so far. 

I'm not ready to feel hopeful again. I was really unprepared for how disappointed I would be, when this last cycle failed to work.

I really thought I was ready. I thought I could handle it.

I'm drinking wine on the couch and watching a dumb true crime melodrama and hiding from how I really feel.