Let's talk about HGH

Specifically, is there any point? Dr. Big Guns says he can't prescribe it off-label. Original RE says she will "definitely not" prescribe it. Some girl on the internet has offered to get me some where she lives in Mexico, and for those of you watching at home, that means I am at present contemplating black market off-label use of a controlled substance in order to improve my chances of conception with unproven rumor.

In other words, I have lost my fucking mind.

Is it worth it? Will it give me cancer? Does anyone even know?

I was all set to do it, but now I'm just like, fuck this noise. For real. I'm finally getting my body back under control. I'm finally getting my sexuality back. I don't even understand what the risks are. Why am I even considering this?

Why am I doing another round of IVF at all?

I should just call Dr. Big Guns, though a fifteen minute conversation with him will probably cost me three hundred fucking dollars. Fuck's sake.

Nope

Just late, for no reason.

Fun.

This is so much fun.

I'm really, really glad I'm having this experience. It's definitely not bad for my mental health.

Nope.

Nope.

Nope.

Two Days Late

Huh.

A Day Late

But not a dollar short.

I'm sure it will come tomorrow.

Right?

Of course it will.

Because DHEA and CoQ10 and whatever that powder shit is and vitamin D is all a scam, and I am kidding myself that "egg quality" is even a thing, and certainly that it is a thing that is even remotely in the control of a 41 year old woman who has spent the summer living her live and sailing and drinking rum and not even really doing much at her job, just like fucking around and relaxing and sleeping and being more active to try to lose some of that IVF midriff squish she's got going on.

I bet it comes tomorrow.